We've been together for 1370 days already...
and i love you more and more each day...
This morning i went to your house to pick u up..
had breakfast at telok blangah (ur fave fishball noodles & fried carrot cake)...
I forced myself to eat, even though i just had breakfast...
i love the look in your eyes when you talk about good food.. saying that we will go and eat another stall that's famous for whatsoever...
anyway.. we continued to go to Sentosa!!
it's been along time since we went there together..
and it's the first time we've been there, just the 2 of us...
at the beach carpark, i turned on my laptop to give you my Surprise...
our MV... In Love With You... with lots and lots of our wonderful memories captured...
we don't usually take photos on our dates (i'm the one always taking pictures of you)
so we don't really have much to choose from...
"Dardar, you're going to NS tomorrow... So i made this video specially for us... I LOVE YOU! *muarkZ*"
and to MY surprise, we both broke down in tears...
i could see from the start that you were trying hard to hold back the tears..
(but i think its quite uncontrollable...)
in the end we just hugged each other and cried....
i was quite shocked initially... i didn't expect you to burst into tears...
your reaction was quite mixed too.. i didn't know how to react...
all i wanted to do was to piece our memories together..
to let you know that our love has been and will be as strong as it can be...
you seemed to be quite angry with yourself that i always made things for you..
yet you didn't prepare anything special for me...
but it's ok... i already know you love me...
we went to play golf initially...
after getting stuck at the 3rd obstacle, we decided to go back later and do other things first...
we went to play the Sentosa Luge... something like a go-cart...
it was fun... but i think i was too timid to let go....
sometimes i wonder how we ended up together...
you are so adventurous.. but i'm just satisfied sitting in my corner..
but i think love is all about give and take...
at times, i would think that it was difficult for us to be together cos our personalities were on the 2 extreme ends... but i think we pulled each other to the equilibrium...
anyway, i was quite scared when you sped off and left me alone back there...
but i just thought.. "you're just in front... i just need to go a little bit faster!"
hahaa... it was really fun... i enjoyed it...
then we took the skyride back up.... kind of like a ski gondola...
the view was great from up there... and i was really shocked that you agreed to take so many photos together... (you usually smile unnaturally in front of the camera MR CHAN)
haha anyway... the photos ended up great and it was quite cool to be kissing at such an altitude...
though it started to drizzle a little as we were on the ride..
but it felt it was really comfortable to be alone with you..
we took our lunch break at subway...
haha it was our first time eating subway...
(we've always said we would go eat subway and we finally did it! yay~)
and it was quite sia suay... cos we both didn't know what to order...
int the end, we just had ham & cheese + 2 cookies + barley...
yum yum~ its really not bad... especially since i'm eating it with you~
then we went back to continue with our game of golf...
the place was run down... the sun was scorching...
i was sweating buckets... and the mosquitoes were feasting on me...
but i didn't mind... because you were with me...
i won in the end... hahahhaa...
(don't forget your girlfriend is TYCO QUEEN okaaay!)
finally after that.. we took a bus to siloso beach...
we were quite disorientated but lucky i go and act tourist to ask for directions lor...
hahahaha..
it was getting late... 4.45pm...
but i really wanted to take a dip at the beach with you...
i love hugging onto you for my dear life in the water...
please don't teach me how to swim...
otherwise, i can't do that anymore... =P
i think it was 5.10pm when we came up...
the wind was quite strong and we were both shivering our way to the toilet...
you even taught me how to see that a storm was coming...
well... true enough... a storm did follow the circling clouds...
quite lucky for us... i brought an umbrella... even though it wasn't much of a use...
standing on the moving tram... while trying to stay dry was difficult..
but i enjoyed standing so close together... =P
we finally made it back to the car...
and you wanted to cut your hair...
i was quite nervous... even though its not my hair..
you had already kept your hair for quite some time...
my heart ached at the thought of you getting shaved...
still.. i video-ed the whole process down...
but.. i still cried halfway...
because it meant that you were REALLY REALLY going to NS tomorrow...
not my nightmare anymore..
i think the barber uncle was in total shock.. seeing me cry...
but i felt that i was crying for you...
i felt that you were crying too deep in your heart... NO HAIR okaaaaay!
but i still love touching your kiwi-like head...
later we went to Tiong Bahru to park the car and went over to Plaza Sing by MRT...
super crowded... but i like the way you grab my hand and weave through the crowd...
when we got to PS, you were quite busy talking to your friends...
but i felt it was okay... just as long as i was beside you...
after sending your friend home, we went to your aunt's house for dinner..
she was really nice... she made us claypot rice...
and also gave you some stuff to pack for NS...
even thought i was really tired while driving, i was happy to have you beside me...
we went back to my house after that...
by the time we reached my house...
i could tell you were extremely tired...
you were sleeping the whole journey home...
we already spent more than 12 hours together...
but i somehow felt it wasn't enough...
i gave you the little photo magnet to paste it on your bunk door...
i want you to miss me more...
then, we went to your house to help you pack things...
it was already almost midnight when we reached...
and we quickly packed all the stuff into your bag...
i was quite worried whether you would leave anything out...
its 2 weeks without coming out..
when i was leaving... i really couldn't stop crying...
i was so worried about you..
hearing you cough... and looking at the injuries on your body..
who's going to remind you to take care of yourself?
i also was afraid we would drift apart...
i was afraid that we wouldn't get a chance to talk everynight...
the trainings would be quite tiring i guess...
so i recorded a "goodnight" video...
"Baobei, quickly go sleep ok? Take care. Good night, Sweet Dreams. *muarkz* I Love You..." just in case... then i could playback when i missed you...
i cried terribly when i was getting into the car...
i really didn't want to leave you...
but i knew you also had to get enough rest for tomorrow...
i wound down the window...
shouted "Bye Dardar! I LOVE YOU" while still sobbing and driving at the same time...
i kept looking back at you... almost knocking into the kerb...
you called me just as i reached home...
i felt really touched... i missed you so badly..
i think i will just cry myself to sleep...
i miss you....