Monday, April 14, 2008

i think we are truly telepathic...
last night we talked on the phone for 19 mins...
its been a long time since we chatted for so long..
ever since, you went in, our phone calls have been short and mostly silent..
i didn't know what to tell you..
or you were just too busy...

last night you told me about your uneasiness of holding a rifle for the first time in your life...
we talked about how i was getting along with my mugging..
then i told you about the trips that i might be going on...
i'm still pretty undecided..

actually i do want to go away for a holiday on my brithday..
tt's what i did last year...
i think it saves me the trouble of having to entertain so many groups of friends who want to celebrate my birthday...
or otherwise save me the embarrassment of having none of my friends wanting to celebrate my birthday or remembering at the very least...
i think i offended quite alot of friends this year..
ching, minghui... i'm not really sure how i stand in their hearts anymore..
i feel that my circle of friends is shrinking..
i think i'm spending too much time with my family...
i feel so schizoid..
i don't want my world to revolve around you only...
but if i'm gonna move out of hostel, i guess that's how i'm gonna end up..
i'm gonna lose my best friend if i move out of hostel..
i'm sure we will drift further anf further apart...
leading our own parallel lives...

back to talking about our telepathic abilities...
my last post ended with talking about how we were going to work together..
and last night, you reassured my feelings...
by telling me how this would be a difficult period for both of us to go through..
how army would change your live and mine..
and how we must be strong...
you said i was your motivation.. and you were my motivation...
heehee...
i was quite touched... i never knew you would say such mushy stuff...
how come you know exactly what i'm thinking?
maybe our hearts are rightnext to each other, even as we are physically apart...